Twenty4seven

I just realize that hall officially ends today, because today is the last day of Eusoff expeditions cambodia trip.

Honestly having a great deal of mixed feelings. I know I shouldn’t make a decision just based on emotions alone but right now these emotions are taking over me. I can’t just pretend like the trip wasn’t transformational, nor influential, because it is.

And to all my seniors who have tried so hard to persuade me to stay in hall, I feel like I’ve let every single one of them down. I remember telling myself that hall are nothing but a selfish institution where you do everything for hall pride, hall this and that, like you live for nothing else other than hall. Yet much as I tried to convince myself, I’m sure that at least two of these people are not like what I described, and I honestly contemplated staying hall because of them, feel bad for choosing not to stay because of them, struggled to resist the idea of even IHG because of them. Darren and Aaron, thank you so much.

I think I’m born with passion. No matter how I try to desensitize everything, build a wall, block people out, I just can’t quite do it. That emotional connection always come back to me and I hate feeling emotionally vulnerable, because when it happens I always make decisions for the sake of others and I neglect myself once again. I want to live for myself, yet at the same time I want to feel.

Dose of courage;

Overnight with cass is the bomb.

Guilty pleasures;

Went rollerblading early in the morning today, which wasn’t the best choice. Ended up with bruises, abrasions and scratches all over, haha, worse than the first time when C&G taught me how to blade. Nonetheless, grateful for you cos I managed to become much better at the end of the day. 

It’s nice knowing someone’s there whenever you’re gonna fall, and at the same time, challenges you to keep pushing for better. First time I ever felt this way. 

Survived;

The relief hasn’t hit me yet. But I had an awesome time together with them :)

Enjoyed every single moment of it. <3

Sem 2 I survived. Hell yeah. Life’s good from this moment onwards.